The rest of the day Wednesday was agonizing. I had made my decision but couldn't actually DO anything yet. Phone calls had to be made, paperwork had to be started, and I couldn't do any of it. I couldn't even start preparing anything because nothing was official yet. So instead I sat and stewed in a huge puddle of anxiety. I couldn't sit still. I could hardly breathe. I alternated between being excited, nervous, and wanting to throw up. It was horrible.
Thursday things finally started happening. I got my release date, and my report date, so I could make my travel plans. I booked my flight, found a hotel, and reserved a rental car. I started making lists. A list of stuff to pack, a list of doctors to call, a list of things I wanted to take, a list of questions I needed to ask. Lots and lots of lists. Lists make me feel better. Except when I would realize another whole set of things I needed to do.
The next few days were a roller coaster ride. On the up side I thought about how much more often I'd be seeing my family. Then I'd realize how much crap I'd have to buy to start a new household, even an apartment one. Then I'd think about coming home to an empty apartment and not being greeted by a sweet puppy grin and a "hi sweetheart" and hug from my man. And then I'd start all over again. It was exhausting.
I spent the weekend organizing things to pack that I don't need all the time. I sorted and organized and packed. I took care of household stuff that's been piling up. Between staying busy and the roller coaster of emotions it was exhausting. Sunday we celebrated Labor Day with pulled pork, fresh from my man's smoker. It was so good! And then I realized I'd be without his fantastic cooking. Down goes the roller coaster again.
It's only been a few days, but it's all a blur in my head. This week I packed up both my desks at work and brought most of my stuff home. Although several boxes are still in my trunk. I started taking the bumper stickers off my car (not an easy task!). I finalized more plans both with the move itself, and work stuff. And I wrote up a list of things I won't be able to close out before I leave this project. That particular list was depressingly long. I was so busy trying not to be depressed I almost forgot that Tuesday was my five-year anniversary with the company. What a present this is!
Today I spent a half-day at work finishing my list of outstanding items. After lunch I went to physical therapy and from there spent several hours going from doctor's office to doctor's office collecting all of my records. My plan is to have all of my medical records together in one package before I leave. We'll see if it works out like that... I also stopped at Lowes and picked up a bunch more cleaning supplies to attack my car with. I finished out the day by working on my car for a while and putzing around in the garden. Tomorrow is a couple more appointments, then a little stay-cation with my sweet :)
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